a beautiful mess...this is

So… as we were driving back to Briggitte’s from Oktoberfest, I kindda had a drunken realization that without alcohol I would not be able to approach guys… in a flirtacious manner. It’s sad… I know but it’s the truth. I guess alcohol gives me what I’d call a confidence boost or the mind-set of being able to do whatever I want. It’s not how I want to meet my future boyfriend or husband (haha) especially at a bar or club because that’s usually where I drink but it looks like that’s just how it might end up. So far, dating these guys that I meet at these joints have been a fail. So sad… =/ But I’m not gonna lie, it’s kindda fun. You have to go through the wrongs before you get it right no?! It’s all about the experience of dating different guys and finally knowing what I DEFINITELY want in a guy. I have faith. I know one day I’ll come across a guy who’ll make my heart beat fast, give me butterflies and all that good stuff.

I hope this kindda explains to those why I drink. I don’t drink cause I enjoy the taste or what it does to my liver… I do it for the confidence boost and… maybe a little for the ego boost. ::wink:: Hey, pick me ups are always nice. So that’s the truth about my “alcoholism.” ^_^

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